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- GM27818
I was dating this woman, had intense feelings for her. Intelligent (full-stack web developer), model looks (looked like Aslaug in Vikings) and so much fun to be around. Felt like I won the lottery. Then she started acting off. She had low energy, would sleep in etc. She blamed it on being diabetic (this is true btw) so I didn't think too much of it.
Flash forward to almost a year in. She flipped out on me because she couldn't get ahold of me one day. I, as some know from the motorcycle thread, race bikes and couldn't exactly stop in the middle of a race to answer my phone and didn't get back to her til later that night. I tried calming her down when I called her back and she didn't want to hear it.
We left things in limbo as she blew me off. I thought she'd just calm down and we'd kiss and make up and go back to normal. After a few months of waiting for her to respond I just said "fuck it" and put myself back out there again.
Present day. I'm dating someone else and the sister of my previous gf contacts me. She explains that she finally got GF's phone unlocked and apparently she OD'd and died the week after our argument and that's why all my texts /emails went unanswered. She also said that her sister was pretty good at hiding the drug problem from me (huge understatement) but she'd had a history with it. (Side note: this doesn't explain why her stupid catty chickenhead friends didn't think to contact me but um...cool)
I have moments where I'm so furious at myself for my absolute naïveté not to see what was going on and heartbroken that I couldn't do anything to prevent her death. Meanwhile, I haven't discussed this with my current gf while I'm trying to make sense of it and I'm just doing my best to bottle all this shit up. Which, probably is the worst thing I can do but that's my default setting.
Anyways thanks for reading and sorry for the downer of a confession. :/
- jesus dude, that's fucked up._niko
- omfgmonospaced
- wow. hang in there man, you did no wrongernexbcn
- Tell your GF and explain how you dont know how to process but that you want her to know so shes not clueless when you are emotionally erratic.cannonball1978
- Thanks. I know if she wanted to do drugs and keeps it from me then what could I do but its a total mindfuck to think I got dumped when actually it was far worseGM278
- Heavy.
Feel for you, man! But like @ernexbcn said above, you did no wrong. Don't ever slip down the guilt/regret hallway; there's no exit down that path.Krassy - and now I'm grieving the loss and I didnt even know, let alone know about the funeral or any of the other stuff. Just UGHGM278
- < thisjagara
- I keep saying I should have just showed up at her place but at I respected her space and didn't want to be some asshole just banging on the door.GM278
- ^ DO NOT blame yourself for any of this, man. Seriously. Even if you can't help but feel some guilt, you have GOT to fight that feeling!Krassy
- ...from the story you tell here, it sounds like you are not responsible for her death. MUCH bigger/deeper issues caused it.Krassy
- it's not your fault. it really isn't. take good care of yourself!sarahfailin
- Dude. That’s so fucked up. But in no way is this your fault.Ramanisky2
- i don't think I feel guilty over her death...but that I found love and now need to grieve that loss in a different way than when i thought she'd dumped meGM278
- Want to repeat what everyone said. Not your fault. And you should open up to your current gf. It's good to have someone close to talk about it.pango
- it was not your decision, nor responsibility, to keep her alive.imbecile
- fuck this guilt, drinking works for it not against so good luck getting out of it. (don't do that)sted
- fuck her 'friends' for not contacting you, and letting this happen in the dark in the first place.inteliboy
- A lot to deal with, and I'm sorry you have this tale to tell. You're a good bloke, from the admitted-little I can tell.
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And +1 for ‘naïveté’Nairn - Sorry about that man. Take your time to grief. don't blâme yourself for this. Get support from your closest friends and gf. Get time for you.Salarrue
- It sounds cruel, but in the end, we are a tiny blob of living cells, alive for a mere fraction of time, held by gravity to a rock, orbiting a empty galaxy...shapesalad
- ...we're born, we mate, we die, that's life, It's short, enjoy it, if others leave before you, it's just how it played out. You've got your journey to follow.shapesalad
- dont go back in time and try to change things in your mind with evidence from the future - it will not help. it can take some time to heal wounds.api
- & take care how you tell (if you do) your new one about your loss. if your feelings where that strong, it could confuse her, so again, take care. all the best!api
- Fuck, what a story man. Yeah, not your fault. I can't imagine.DRIFTMONKEY
- I've been in similar situation. It's impossible not to blame yourself, but keep reminding yourself that it isn't, because it isn't.garbage
- "Troubled hearts map deserts, and they rarely do come back."garbage
- Looked like a slag in vikings?set
- drug addiction is an illness that makes people do crazy things and cause hurt for so many people. grieve as much as you need but don't blame yourself.lowimpakt
- aw fuck man :/ were there any moments where you thought "this is uncommon" (drug related) while you have been together?mekk
- No way... that's fucked up. Talk to us man. But in the meantime, I'd probably speak to you GF just like your previous GF should've spoken to you.Ianbolton
- DUDE... you are not responsible for someone else wellbeing... Tough has it is, it just prove your human BUT you never made her do what she did...necromation
- Ride them bikes, love your life and ride them bikes, oh and ride them bikes... Yes you heard me!necromation
- as usual, Set is here for your emotional support.
Don't keep this from your GF dude, if something big is bugging you, she deserves to know or she'll think it'sProjectile - shit dude, hang in there. She hide this from you, you sound like the person that would have helped if you had know.
Do talk to your GF, honesty is key.mugwart - Its a strange feeling having lost someone and only find out about it several month later. It suckspango
- Thanks all. Especially for not kicking me while I'm down. It's been rough.GM278
- greyandred7
I'm a 40 year old recently single dad of a 2 year old, and have stumbled into in a strange relationship with his babysitter - a 20 year old. I mean, she's absolutely beautiful, and she's the one fighting for this to happen between us, but I'm painfully aware we have nothing in common but a physical attraction.
She's of a totally different generation, really sweet and means well, but I feel so guilty. What the fuck am I doing QBN?
- pics?drgs
- Did you mean 'what the fuck am I doing ON QBN, when I'm single & I have an attractive 20 year old lusting after me?'?Wolfboy
- Wear protection.zarkonite
- beware the loonies.Gnash
- Wait until she's 21 to decide anything, until then hit the gym and carry on...robotron3k
- Go for it.babydick
- just tell her that. I just feel physical attracted. if it's okay for her and she doesn't have expectations then go for it. she might teach you somethingoey
- https://www.youtube.…Gnash
- When I was 32 I met a 20 year old. She was in love, pushing, dreaming of marriage and babies.. I was confused like you. Eventually stayed friends.shapesalad
- She was a bikini model. So it was hard to stay friends... but glad it's like this now.shapesalad
- Girls that age want to feel grown up, to stand out from their peers, have their beauty and worth confirmed.shapesalad
- They're not really fully aware of what it all means, and they will regret rushing into it...shapesalad
- At 20 I was still figuring out my left from my right foot.notype
- Walk away.notype
- Gnash awful presentation... i did laugh thoughnotype
- Seriously? Bang her for a while...STORM305
- Fuck walking away. Fuck her. FUCK ITTTTTset
- I’ve been totally honest about my concerns, and she just doesn’t seem to have any at all. But why would she, she’s so younggreyandred
- Am keeping it as casual as possible until I sort my head out, but can’t see it working long termgreyandred
- @Shapesalad: Wise words. But yeah, I’m finding it confusing too – she’s distractingly hot :-Dgreyandred
- Appreciate the LOLS as well. Thanks QBNgreyandred
- I was 35 and dated a 21 year old ... we are engaged to marry.mugwart
- be open and honest and for fuck sake enjoy the fantasy!!mugwart
- The maturity of a 20 y-o versus a 40 years is very different. beware man.Bennn
- Good to hear Mugwart, congratsgreyandred
- I mean she's visual perfection in every sense and I feel incredibly lucky, especially coming out of a major breakupgreyandred
- Yeah Bennn, that's it man.greyandred
- Well, enjoy, give it time. Try a holiday abroad, holidays are always a good test.shapesalad
- Too dangerous.SimonFFM
- ^ thisGnash
- its okay. do it and make sure expectations are setcannonball1978
- The red flag for me was that she's "fighting for this to happen"... what? Sounds like you're fulfilling your own needs and could give 2 shits about her.notype
- Sounds like it'll be a mess. We'll be here to make some jokes about your situation in a month. Just don't have her open up QBN on your phone hehhehnotype
- Tread carefully for your kid's sake. A good friend once said "Ask yourself...is she the future mother of your child?"Gucci
- In this case you already have one, so if it's just a bit of fun, enjoy. If it becomes something else...well...that's where shit gets messy.Gucci
- @notype yeah, doesn't sound too good when you put it like that. I'm apprehensive to say the least.greyandred
- @Gucci Good perspective, thanks mangreyandred
- I'm dating 20 y/o's that are nearly as mature as me. Don't care if that says more about me or them, bc the dynamic suits me. Not for everyone of course.SteveJobs
- But I'd argue women change most between early to mid 20's, so serious *might* be tough depending on how hot she is vs. how much she's looking for marriage.SteveJobs
- go for it, you only live once. no Regerts!_niko
- SteveJobs how old are you 22-23?
its pretty rare to find a person without any bigger issues who has a developed (mature ) personality at the age of 20 (or 23).sted - Don't get her pregnant. AND please don't let your child see you two together. Other than that, have fun.sea_sea
- talk to her, see how it goes, protect your kid. Go slow (if possible!) as it might impact your kids. Seriously if your honest and she is and you both enjoy eachmugwart
- other its just a part of the relationship. Its only a good thing for us. Forces me to remain young and it might force her to think mature. Meet in the middlemugwart
- if she likes your kids and still wants you then its a great sign. As long as its not a 'green card' job. First think i asked myself was how would my kid likemugwart
- her. 3 years on and they are doing homework and he has a genuine positive female figure in his life.
These things can work out.mugwart - don't always over think it. Again if you both brutally honest its only a good thing.mugwart
- I assume that's related https://www.qbn.com/…zaq
- @drgs LOLuan
- so you took the attractive babysitter and now you are in trouble. either way it sounds like you need a new babysitter soon. its your turn, i dont judge!api
- I can already smell the drama awaiting you.utopian
- If you get together, and in a years time you're looking for a new baby sitter, I can only imagine the look she gives you when you hire a hot 20 y/o.shapesalad
- ^ just get her to recruit the next one. As long as she goes on qualifications, simples!mugwart
- Sorry bro.
"Half your age + 7"VectorMasked - you're a dad.
my guess is her dad is probably fairly close to YOUR age... picture having a conversation with him...exador1 - If my daughter suddenly started dating a guy THAT much older, I'd have some fucking problems with it...exador1
- did you hire your babysitter from tinder?pinkfloyd
- Lol Vectormaskedpango
- MEDIOCRE!!!DRIFTMONKEY
- Ah, sorry I did not read ‚single dad‘. Wondered why everyone said do it. You’re free so yes, why even ask! Enjoy!SimonFFM
- Lol @pink... If you're single, why not? But, take care of kids; if things between you two start going bad...OBBTKN
- Tread lightly. We’ve all seen bitter 40 year olds who were treated without the respect they think they deserved at 20! Do the right thing.Ianbolton
- i've been there, spent some good times, but it's a dead end. No matter how mature, the age gap is there.ApeRobot
- Congrats! Is she Polish?Hayzilla
- :DDsted
- She was born in 1998...
Probably barely remembers 911...
O_Opango - She was born in 1998...
Probably barely remembers Google...
O_Outopian - Also.... Pic or BS!pango
- pics or it didn't happenautoflavour
- autoflavour35
i hate being upvoted
- front page materialernexbcn
- +1pinkfloyd
- i love how predictable you all are..autoflavour
- Tbh I down voted...pango
- soundofreason28
I'm renderedred.
- Wolfboy17
People are having a hard time with COVID19, struggling with work, isolation and obviously health issues.
But, *whispers* I’m loving lockdown.
I’ve taken a three month mortgage holiday, I work freelance and I’m working on average 1.5 days a week to cover my bills while using the rest of my time to get stuck into my own projects. I’m lucky enough to have a decent sized garden and green space fairly close by; so I can get plenty exercise.
So yeah, my confession is that lock-down is right up my straßë.
- For the most part, I'm enjoying it too. **SHHHHHH!!** I worked from home anyways, not freelance, just remote. We're getting lots of house projects done!elahon
- i got a gov't coronavirus loan, refinanced all my debt at 0% then turned down two jobs on the same day while drinking amaretto sours from my hammock.kingsteven
- i work from home and also hate to go out anyway, for me nothing changed either.renderedred
- i work for a big company, seated between 2 managers (toughest seat in the house) so i am LOVING quarantine. and they say my comms are better. like hell yeah cuztrooperbill
- ...i dont have you two nitwits half listening to conversations and chiming in with irrelevant comments and suggestions, casting doubt on my abilities.trooperbill
- Pros: Made more money, lots o' family time, finished home projects, tons of art studio time.
Downside: Marriage counseling :( We're doing better now.bezoar - Working remotely before this, so nothing changed.grafician
- I'm loving it too...no crushing london commute, working remotely, lots of time for making art and music. An introvert's dreamBaskerviIle
- shellie0
I ghosted someone I was seeing. I couldn't bare to tell him why I wasn't interested.
1) He was a flat eather for real (weird someone else posted something similar) but I couldn't get over it. I thought he was an idiot for that. After he really tried to defend that, a lot of other things he has said that I might have let slide sounded rediculous and rang in my head. The lack common sense was actually offensive.
2) One day I thought he ghosted me. He did not. After a date we had he ended up really sick and in the hospital and had half of his intestine removed. Long story short, he has a colostomy bag now. I tried, really tried, to hang with him again after that. But, it really grossed me out. I couldn't get over that either. Our relationship wasn't really a relationship to begin with at that point just a few casual dates and I couldn't stick with it. But, I feel a little guilty. I know hes going to have a much harder time dating now and everyone deserves happiness. He's fairly young (early 30s) and having to shit in a bag is unfortunate.
I'm not sure what really did it for me, point 1 or point 2. Probably point 1 but point 2 didn't help. I just left him on read for eternity. His last text, "Are you ghosting me?" actually triggered the for real ghosting. At first I just meant to give myself some space to think. But, when I read that text I said to myself, "Yes, that is definately what im doing." I may apologise after some time. But, I don't want to date him anymore even if I do speak to him. We have no mutual friends or work in the same field. Just someone way out of network I met on an app. Sometimes things just don't work out. Does it really need an explanation?
- *earthershellie
- i would do the same thing.pango
- however id send a simple text in few days "ya... this is not gonna work out"pango
- It's been over a month now pang. I feel le its possible he's completely forgotten about me and reaching out would be worse/triggering. What you think?shellie
- point 1 is infinitely worse. you could have lived with #2, shit happens._niko
- I see what you did there niko.shellie
- ;)_niko
- oooof ya passed the point of no return. let's hope you don't run into him on the street. and or that you have the endurance for awkwardness.pango
- That would be like ruining into him in times square when you live in queens. Unlikely. We didn't hang in the same places or live near each other. Thnk god!!shellie
- It is better you did an Irish exit early on, he's got bigger concerns and it's healthier he focus on the future ;)robotron3k
- Not fan of ghosting, but to be with someone just out of pity is worse. It's best for both to end itdrgs
- Don't date flat Earthers, but don't ghost people either. Too late now, but a simple 'it's not working for me' is better than a ghost. No judgement :)sarahfailin
- "I'm a flat earther" would had me running out the door before finishing his next sentence.hotroddy
- red flag. suspended indefinitely.hotroddy
- don't feel bad about ghosting. flat earthers should be used to it.hotroddy
- He actually tried to make his case with like hr long YouTube videos. I had to put my foot down & stay stop. HE said "You really like when i shut up." Uhm, yes!shellie
- Flat earth is the dumbest unlikely and expensive conspiracy for no fucking reason. Give me a break!shellie
- He deserves the respect to hear "it's not working out"Hayoth
- Aside from basic science, it makes zero sense even if science as we know it was wrong. I literally cannot get on board.shellie
- You're right haygoth. Its probably the meanest thing I've ever done. Im riddled with guilt. At this point im worried about making him feel worse.shellie
- How hot was this guy that you continued to date him after you found out he was a "flat earther"??????fooler
- @fooler That part unfolded slowly. That was basically our last date before he ended up in the hospital. I probably never would have seen him again after that bushellie
- when he called me from the hospital, I was kinda shocked and sad for him. So, I let him come over one more time because he was finally able to be outside movingshellie
- around and he said he just wanted to feel normal for a minute. :(shellie
- 1 text - "roses are red, voilets are blue
The world is fucking round, yes I'm ghosting you'dee-dubs - ^lol. simple and to the point.hotroddy
- he made people watch hr long youtube video LOL. best idea anyone ever had.pango
- Can't date a flat earther. There's no future in it. Imagine being at a party five years in and the subject comes up. You'll hate your lifenb
- ghosting is childish. Just text him you're sorry but not interested and THEN don't reply anymore eversrhadden
- Are there really that many Flat Earthers out there? I'm kind of amazed more than one of you have had this experience...yuekit
- Let him know that you can’t date somebody so incredibly stupid they can’t accept the fact that we live on a planet. He can live with that.monospaced
- And a colostomy bag is a deal breaker. Don’t feel bad about that. He isn’t too idiotic to know that is disgusting.monospaced
- Hayoth seems to know as much about relationships as he does communism (literally nothing at all), so I wouldn’t give his input any weight at all.monospaced
- This sounds to me like you ghosted him out of disgust, not out of disagreement.cannonball1978
- You ghosted him.
Now his bag is filling with rage
Mostly shit, but now with ragefuturefood - Mono-- I don't know what's worse - being a flat earther or defending communismhotroddy
- lol... from colostomy bags to communism... this post delivers!PonyBoy
- wait... so if I believe the world is round and I don't have a colostomy bag I might have a chance to date you? Sweet!fooler
- hotroddy, worse is the guy who calls people communists when they aren’t, and worse than that is the one who thinks people are defending itmonospaced
- Because there are no communists here or in our government or really anywhere in this country, and nobody is defending it. That’s you and hayoth 100% making it umonospaced
- flat earther is enough.autoflavour
- Posting this here was the right choice. A colostomy bag full of rage? You're getting coal for Christmas @futurefood. Welcome to the club.shellie
- And by coal, I'm talking about Trump's coal. Big lumps shaped like T and covered in gold foil wrap.shellie
- set?mekk
- Colostomy bag isn't a death sentence - there are people who will look past that.ben_
- So he'll be fine.ben_
- oh wait, he's a flat-earther. he's fucked.ben_
- Shellie, maybe he just wanted to get rid of you. And when the flat earth thingy didn't work he got his intestine removed.NBQ00
- scarabin7
I don’t understand the vietnam war, at all. Best i can figure is we were murdering innocent people en masse because it’s possible that some day they may become communists? And that really bothered us because boomers are obsessed with communists for some fucking reason?
And then they became communists anyway and the world never ended so what was the fucking point?
- No wonder rambo was so butthurt all the time. Shit was stupidscarabin
- Yeah, that's it in a nutshell. After the French Indochina War / and the partitioning of Vietnam we first tried to destabilize the South Vietnamese government..garbage
- ..after half-assed aid attempts failed. Then we went full Wandering Soul and Gulf of Tonkin.garbage
- #Winningutopian
- If you haven't read about it, it's really fucked. We captured vietcong and recorded them making spooky ghost sounds telling them to go home.garbage
- Blasted them from boats, helicopters, hidden speakers in the woods.garbage
- And then did some actual false flag shit by faking an attack on a US destroyer, which set everything to 11.garbage
- So yeah, no wonder Rambo was fucked up lolgarbage
- Oh and one of the ghost scripts in our psy ops was Vietnamese folk ghost, name translates to "the tightening knot", that encourages people to kill themselves.garbage
- amazing. i would never think of the the ghost sounds thingscarabin
- McNamara and the US thought they were fighting communism but the Vietnamese were fighting for their freedom. USA leadership = idiotsnb
- i'm watching this doc from the vietnamese perspective about their tunnels. fascinating but truly sad stuff https://youtu.be/19e…scarabin
- @scara Great link, will watch. Can't imagine being a person in the tunnels and hearing a voice be all "Hey this is your dad, I just died, come home and bury me"garbage
- @nb I could be wrong, but I think top brass knew there was no hope for a capitalistic revolution from the locals..garbage
- ..but it was a lie fed to the troops and PR against anti-war sentiment back home. McNamara was a lot of things, but stupid wasn't one.garbage
- I think in some ways it was similar to what happened in Korea and China, all these countries were destabilized by WW2 and afterwards you had communist andyuekit
- capitalist sides battling for control. This was during the heyday of communism so it seemed like an existential threat from the Americans' point of viewyuekit
- to watch country after country get taken over by communists. Little did they know the communists would someday be manufacturing Nike sneakers and Airpods.yuekit
- It's not an exaggeration to say that the US and China both saw what the Axis powers almost accomplished, both saw the world was potentially conquerable..garbage
- ..and immediately started long-term plans for getting a foothold in every power vacuum in the region.garbage
- Right, and it worked lol...and here we are todayyuekit
- From the Vietnamese perspective however, I think they view it as a long series of conflicts that led to their independence. First against the French, thenyuekit
- the Japanese, then USA, then afterwards Vietnam invaded Cambodia and China tried to invade Vietnam.yuekit
- It seems like most Americans only know about the part we fought in, which Vietnam calls "the American War."yuekit
- My public school had like a single paragraph about itscarabin
- I think we're about the same age (mid-30s) and my public school actually taught that we won the war in Vietnam.garbage
- wait till you learn about the US involvement in Afghanistan.jonny_quest_lives
- and because they aren't white. Somehow we're always more comfortable bombing not-white people.sarahfailin
- There is this recent documentary by Ken Burns and Lynn Novick that goes into details https://www.youtube.…uan
- I learned about the Ken Burns effect from scarabin years ago on qbn...that's why I bothered to watch that doc. what I remember: shows both side in detail...uan
- you'll need to find the episodes on youtube or elsewhere to watch. it's 18 hours in total. "The Vietnam War (2017) - A film by Ken Burns and Lynn Novick"uan
- my high-school history teacher called it the first war based on purely propaganda.sted
- I’ll check it out, uanscarabin
- On a fundamental level, it was a sectarian civil war. The US didnt invade, it was invited.Brabo_Brabo
- Baby boomers were being sent there or smart enough to leave the country. It was the older generation that gave us the red scare.CyBrainX
- on a positive note, we got some of the best songs of the rock era_niko
- growing up as a kid, my family worked with and employed hundreds of Vietnamese refugees, these are the hardest working industrious and clever fucks I've ever me_niko
- ...met. America never stood a chance lol_niko
- Lots of those Viets would be on our side... they had to flee after the South was over run.Brabo_Brabo
- The irony is, Vietnam today is very pro capitalism while many Americans no longer believe in free markets.yuekit
- https://qz.com/39473…yuekit
- gonzalle10
I don't know what QBN means ... I think it's something like Q... B... Network...
In fact I even don't know what QBN is.
I don't know who you are, people.
I don't remember why and when I started coming there. It became something like a ritual thing to come here almost every day.- https://media3.giphy…maquito
- quite boring nerdshans_glib
- ^ Thanks !gonzalle
- QBN mean Quesadillas By NormBennn
- All I know is the "B" in QBN stands for "Benn" AKA "Benfal"chukkaphob
- hahh quuuuuuu beeee eeennnn classic!% quit being noob just kidding it's quite big nuts, but back in the days it was: quorporation broadcasting networksted
- Quit Bullshitting Nowsureshot
- Quit Being Noobsarahfailin
- Quaaludes, Benzedrines & Narcoticssarahfailin
- Qualatex Balloon NetworkVectorMasked
- Que Bueno Noticiasdorf
- ^ Que Buenas Noticias!OBBTKN
- ArmandoEstrada16
I like 12 year old threads
- mekk7
I'm hardly doing any work for months and I got a positive review this year along with a raise. wtf.
- shut up and run with it!pango
- my 100% at the office = 40% actual work + 40% browsing the web + 20% personal projectsdrgs
- whats your secret! I killed myself and got positive reviews but minimal raise!mugwart
- ^ the little work I did was flawless while some of my coworkers fucked up one thing after anothermekk
- You're too good for the people you work with loli_was
- whatever I don't want the big bucks or international career, I want my peace of mind and time for travellingmekk
- ^ you said it man, you said it.helloeatbreathedrive
- Figure out how to go home at 3 or work 4 days a week instead and you'll be a genius.freedom
- I had a job like that where I had a ton of down time and got praise but it was depressing because I never knew how to look busy.freedom
- that would be freedom (excuse the pun!)mugwart
- Maybe You doing more by doing lessadrok
- whoaw.... mind blown....pango
- Same. Had a baby. Barely worked the first couple months. Took 8 weeks leave and 3 weeks vacation. Can’t recall any standout projects. Best review in a decade.monospaced
- mugwart7
Bit lame to write on a blog post but I have been practically bed ridden from severe depression, PTSD for two weeks, got one week off but panicking its not enough.
Feel weak and pathetic.
- Stay strong bro!
https://i.imgur.com/…utopian - Damn mugwort sorry to hear.
If you don’t mind me asking ...
where did the PTSD stem from??Ramanisky2 - like long abuse from family, ex wife abuse, extreme poverty and a lot of extreme work stress plus other stuff Thought it was only armed forces that get itmugwart
- thanks all though, means a lotmugwart
- Sorry to hear that mug.
Sending good vibes your way.Ramanisky2 - tamugwart
- hey man, good vibes and angels on your body!renderedred
- mug feel better soon. This will pass as well... rest up. do the best you can.notype
- @work stress. maybe you can change something here in the long run. but for now, get better and take your time!api
- that sucks. try for a jog or exercise? obvious, but helps.inteliboy
- Talking about is an important step into the right direction. Even if it's to a bunch of QbNoobers. Tell us, if we can help you somehow.Longcopylover
- ^ thanks. Not sure its something that can be helped. Need money and time to get out of this. Struggling with both!
appreciate this thoughmugwart - cut yourself some slack. you put a lot of pressure on yourself to be creative/productive on your work breakGnash
- forgive yourself.Gnash
- stop judging yourself.Gnash
- stop future-trippingGnash
- accept where you are with humble thankfulnessGnash
- Stay strong bro!
- Krassy7
I've never visited the Official NSFW Thread
- probably for the bestGardener
- What? Are you scared?inv
- i did once by mistake, and managed to click out again in a picosecond, but in that time saw way too much and had to burn my eyes out with bleachhans_glib
- C Y B E R T R U T Hutopian
- What have you been doing this quarantine?!!?Maaku
- Its basicly a less weird version of the Chick of the Day thread.webazoot
- one day, Krassy, one day.
you're finally going to loose your virginity.sted - Pussybabydick
- NBQ004
...I would love to make a baby with a hot girl.
- as would Icannonball1978
- Pretty much life’s purpose. Do it.monospaced
- Same. I would love to make a baby with a cool guy.shellie
- Nahhh I wouldn't like to make baby with a cool guy.pango
- pango wants a hot guyPonyBoy
- As long as someone doesn't make a guy with a hot baby.shellie
- Ohhhhhhhh boy that went dark really quick. Lolpango
- First get a hot girl, than enjoy your relationship, then think about it twice because having a child will change everything.ApeRobot
- ^ yes, including "hotness" of said girl - better or worse? i cannot say.dorf
- My ex was hot but also narcissistic. So make sure this hot girl has a good life psychology and your sorted! (Perverted often helps!)mugwart
- been there, done that!dee-dubs
- Or just cross out the baby part.pango
- What am I supposed to do with a baby?!?!?!pango
- who said anything about rape?utopian
- What rape?pango
- Would you actually like to make a baby or just have sex with said hot girl?BK
- pango6
I'm not Asian...
- XDsea_sea
- lolpockets
- https://i.imgur.com/…utopian
- HaitianHijoDMaite
- https://upload.wikim…MrT
- https://i.imgur.com/…PonyBoy
- http://cdn.funnyisms…oey
- Wowow... Take it down a bit before you guys go to far.pango
- sorry.oey
- Wow, that would ruin everything.CyBrainX
- maquito10
I just came from a rehersal with my band after the shift, and I'm pretty hammered. I love you all, but y u r i m o n.. I will always think you're a faggot man, sorry for that if you still read this shit, fuck face.
- lolAl_dizzle
- Lolpango
- ༼ つ ◕_◕ ༽つDRIFTMONKEY
- tell us how you really feelchukkaphob
- lol, sweet dreams, hope you got over your repressed nightmares psycho boy.yurimon
- NBQ000
I went on a date with a Flatearther girl. Seriously, she's dead serious about it. Had no idea about her world-views before going on the date. It was fun, she's really cool though.
- cool enough to make a baby with?drgs
- Tinder?notype
- yesNBQ00
- I have so many questions.
Going on a 2nd?notype - lol, maybe.NBQ00
- ask her to take a trip with you to the ice wall edge of the earth. then push her off.capn_ron
- Is it even possible to talk to her without her picking up on the fact you think this idea is totally insane?monospaced
- Can she explain the phases of the moon?BabySnakes
- When she moves her head, do you hear something rattling in there?Continuity
- lolNBQ00
- How the topic of the shape of the earth come up on a date? Lolyuekit
- lol yuekit "I just need to say I have flat balls"fadein11
- That's strange, I imagined most flat earthers to be men with mental health problems.PhanLo
- she very well could be a man with mental health problemsmonospaced
- how'd the second go?notype
- LOLpango
- hotroddy-6
I piss into the sink on airplane bathrooms. (toilet is too low and always make a mess)
- Awe man not cool.monospaced
- fuck you!BusterBoy
- Wow. If you're not joking, that fairly comprehensively describes everything anyone would ever need to know about you. What a nasty person.Nairn
- finally, an actual confession. upvotedGnash
- How tall are you? Surely it's easier to piss into a toilet than a sink? Mucky sod.Fax_Benson
- what a nasty person!chukkaphob
- lolset
- I enjoy how offended people are at thisset
- @set same, but also disturbedKrassy
- Don't listen to them. KEEP DOING IT!maquito
- probably more common than we think. thankfully i've honed the art of touching nothing in pub. bathrooms.notype
- Lol... best confession yet :)PonyBoy
- ^ you misspelled *worstchukkaphob
- Airplanes are not made for tall people, take a boatOBBTKN
- LOL. Keep it real Roddy!Hayzilla
- geez.lol i'm not an animal. I soap down the sink after I'm done.hotroddy
- Your filthy ass reminded me of this article I read last year:
https://www.google.c…futurefood - The tank system for drinking water is fucked, imagine the water system used to wash your hands.futurefood
- Piss like a woman instead. Sit.jagara
- Anyone that thinks this is amusing is a cunt.BusterBoy
- I'm amused.jagara
- And, apparently, also a cunt.jagara
- I'm also amused. In a world of heinous human beings everywhere, this is a pittance.CyBrainX
- I'm curious to know where your sense of mirth would draw the line, then — if a QBNer admitted fucking their daughter, would that be morally equidistant?Nairn
- It's ok in some cultures after all.Nairn
- pinkfloyd-1
I've gotten into physical altercations 8 times, and I like fighting people larger than me.
- Billy badass over hereterry_cloth
- what a toolcbass99
- Be careful!maquito
- I've paid people to get into physical altercations 1008 times, they were all smaller than me.RealDonaldTrump
- I think fighting people smaller than you is cowardlypinkfloyd
- you sound like an asshole and idiot pinkfloyd.cbass99
- I don't like to fight anymore, i'm too old for thatpinkfloyd
- cbass, you're projecting againpinkfloyd
- i probably wouldn't project if you didn't say stupid shit all of the time.cbass99
- you're hate for me is too strong, something is wrong with youpinkfloyd
- seriously wrong with youpinkfloyd
- you forgot the first rule_niko
- *your, and you do say some shit on here that casts you in a less than brilliant light, pinkflyod.detritus
- Having a willingness and aptitude for violence is a good thing. Looking for fights to satiate your ego is dumb. How many out of those 8 fights did you get yourterry_cloth
- Monkey ass kickedterry_cloth
- it's always the same idiots....pinkfloyd
- I've lost 2 of those fights. Apparently confessing the truth is wrong? What else can I say?pinkfloyd
- detritus, you're a miserable personpinkfloyd
- There is something wrong with liking to hurt people. Violence is a last recourse, enjoying it is sadism. If you are doing better than 50/50 than you have some aterry_cloth
- -ptitude and ought to channel those shitty feelings into something productive, like boxingterry_cloth
- how many folks in here have real accounts? again, qbn has gone to shitpinkfloyd
- Huh? Was that directed at me? Whatever, stay safe bud, dental work isn't cheap and there's no glory in lying in the er with a collapsed lungterry_cloth
- we are all one person with fake accountspinkfloyd
- Fuck fighting. I broke my nose a few times when I was younger. Had to have an operation on it. It helped but they left a 2mm hole in the middle, now it whistlesset
- I have to plug it with a tiny 1cm square of wet kitchen towel otherwise it drives me nuts. True story.set
- lol pinkmoldero
- Miserable is not knowing who you are and the little you do know, you dislike. Miserable is hiding yourself. Miserable is compensating for weakness by fighting.detritus
- tldr;pinkfloyd
- that's all well and good, but you did read it.detritus
- *pinkies pinklfoidal's cloaca*detritus
- Lol I find it funny terry treats violence as last resort. Consider how easily he threatens to use violence. Maybe he's just all talk.pango
- I've only fought guys bigger than me. Never throw the fist punch tho.pango
- every fight I've been in has been broken up before it gets anywhere seriousmonospaced
- if and when i meet you pango i'm going to slap you so hard your pre teen looking chin hairs are going to fall out, then, i'll steal your shoes and tattooterry_cloth
- 'pango' in comic sans across your foreheadterry_cloth
- LOL oh that's funny. I'd like to see you try.pango
- Sounds good, let me know when you get to Boston, you crave my attention and I want to give you some, it's perfectterry_cloth
- Lol you sure you're how old you said you are? Cuz sometime you sound like a teenager who's always got to prove something.pango
- O_O and I thought I'm the one who needs to grow up. GROW UP TERRY! You're not a kid anymore!pango
- I have never stated my age gender race sexual orientation or anything else like that on here. Keep right on nut hugging though you ugly little manletterry_cloth
- So your saying there's really a possibility that you are an angry teenagers who can't wait to show the world how tough you are lolpango
- You can do it!! I'll be cheering for you! Lol. Go show em how tough you are!pango
- Babbling on with your simple minded nonsence is fine but why not come see for yourself, I'll give you my undivided attention, cmon you girly little manterry_cloth
- "Looking for fights to satiate your ego is dumb" LOL Quick being dumb terry!pango
- Oh please, you are fine feet tall and have the muscle tone of a 12 year old girl, I will slap the soul out of you and you will cry, that's not a fightterry_cloth
- Wooooo i'm so scared. could you describe in more detail how are you gonna hurt me? lolpango
- your thirst for my attention is insatiableterry_cloth
- yes yes its' great to know you spend so much time thinking about interacting with me in real life.pango
- i'm truly flattered :)pango
- 8 times in your life?? You must be huge, intimidating in some ways, a great negotiator and have lived in safe neighborhoods.CyBrainX
- I had so many fights as a kid. I wasn't small or wimpy but was pretty goofy. After a while I got good at fighting because of so much experience.CyBrainX
- rootlock6
I brought a super hot girl home with her dude friend to do blow after the bar one night. It got busy ... she was like I'll suck your cock if you let him first.
I feel like it was a good trade.
- Bunny Lebowski?moldero
- let him first suck your cock? Yuk?shapesalad
- What the fuck, who sucked who's dick?babydick
- Thanks for giving us the blow by blow.CyBrainX