Suicide?
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- DutchBoy0
hey tank!
i am ok.... besides a lot of debt.
how are you, man?
(let's not hijack this thread tho...then we'd better email..)
- tank0
ok.going to bed now.
work in the morning.
seeyaz.
take care y'all
- abizzyman0
Tim...
I'm going to say a small prayer in your favor (whether you believe in that thing or not)... so sad -- you're one of those people that i wish I could just do everything for. :)
... erok...
*Big Hug* from a dude. :) You get a prayer also.
If you take away anything from this thread - take away the fact that you're not alone in your problems. That usually brings comfort to me when I'm sitting in my apartment alone at 2 in the morning wondering why I even bother.
Tomorrow's always going to be there - It'd be nice if you were there too.
Therapy helps - and sometimes it takes time for the therapy to work. The meds are very useful if it's something chemical.
It sounds like you've got some childhood crap -- which HAS ALWAYS held me back from being what I really can be. But if you grab those issues - embrace them -- and learn and grow from them, then tomorrow will be a better day - because you'll still be here.
Understand that you can't get rid of some things in your life (imperfections, bad habits or past events that you can't erase). There are some things you can't change - accept them into your life... and work on them if you can - but don't beat yourself up if you fail or if you feel horrible for who you are.
In the meantime - do something different / special for yourself today. Make sure it's a moment for you.
Don't let sadness win. Take a deep breath... you're loved.
;)
- BonSeff0
if its any consolation, im killing myself one 12ver at a time.
+ im a smoker
look for me at the pearly gates
i'll be wearing a shirt that reads:
NSFWseriously though
go easy man.
- Rand0
abizzyman, dutchboy, erok
may god pinch you on the cheek and say god bless through the internet
- lilbabyarm0
when I go I'm taking a gang of fools with me.
- versa0
this is just one idea of many:
i don't get suicidal or depressed ever, but I do get anxiety attacks, and I find that sometimes exercise can really really help it....i mean intense exercise, to the point where you exhaust yourself to the point of being unable to think very much, and just wanting to relax and tune out a bit.....i know it sounds trite, but truly, give more activity and exercise a try when you feel down and see if it helps....i do know that depression and anxiety sometimes get treated in similar ways so who knows ....
- erok0
Friends,
I am overwhelmed by all the response.
I can only say thank you a million times..
Unconsciously, I feel I posted this today as a cry for help. (A fleeting attempt at that)
I am doing what I can to make things better... It's been killing me for too many years now.. I am drying on the inside..
I need to fix that... I will..
Thank you thank you..
Let's let this post rest in peace..
_erok
- ortablaze0
hey erok
One last thing I would like to add to this thread which may be helpfull.
I am actually going through a similar phase in my life. For roughtly a year now and still ongoing I've been feeling my passion for life diminishing. Living seems so difficult and I have nothing to look forward to. I've lost the drive I had and the upbeat personality I once posessed. Every action seems so difficult and I'm lost in this world. I'm so sad and I have nobody to tell it to and be understood. Every minute I waste I regret but I still continue to waste time with inactivity. I'm aware that only I can save myself but it's really difficult.
Suicide has entered my thoughts but it's something that I will NEVER DO. Although I can see why it seems such a convenient way out - die and troubles are gone. But I don't want to be remembered dying in that fashion, as a coward and a quitter. All we can do my friend is to grab a pen and paper and design ourselves a solution.
I'm amazed by how much support this community has provided. The feedback from here alone placed a smile on my face...so happy to see how fellow artists support each other and provide insightfull comments on this thread.
Just hang in there bud, we're all with you. Don't make hasty decisions at your present state of mind.
- Kuz0
Seriously, listen to what Rand has to say.
We all want you alive.
I want you alive, and I don't even know you. Even tho you might be feeling dislocated from everybody - you're part of us.
I did some councilling back in my student days for other students, and i got to talk to a lot of suicidal people. If you want someone to talk to, just head me up with an email, i'd be more than happy to listen. Sometimes it helps talking to strangers.
Anyway good luck brotha, I hope it all works out quickly.
- hooked0
a bit late but some post -doubt survival strategy:
1. first advice. get off the internet for a bit. seriously. its no place for you when things are bad. you need to be in the company of people who actually know you- not just share professional interests etc.
2. when its all over- don't be looking for some huge enlightenment about the validity of life- there won't be one. focus on one thing you enjoyed previously, no matter how hopeless/selfish and the possibility of it coming back around at some point. and just wait. hang in there. tenacity is its own reward.
3. learn to distinguish the part of you that wants to give up on life and the part of you that is just haunted by fears of dying, and of loss. this is complicated and difficult to explain exactly.
anyway- hope yer feeling better. now go get a good meal. the taste of cherries my friend.....
- octopus0
everyotherminute
- erok0
Thank you friends....
Today is a new day...........
- erok0
Thank you ___________ for having dinner with me last night, listening and wanting to help.
Ok friends, let's let this post rest now... If you feel the need, or want to speak to me, email at:
_erok
- slinky0
well wait a second, you gotta hear from slinky 1st.... here comes my post...
- brooke0
Hey Eric... I'll be in Savannah by this time next week. Maybe we can hang out some time when I visit Atlanta.
- erok0
Brooke,
Would love to... I am sure Drake would too.. Email me and let me know when and where.
- slinky0
Erok,
My uncle shot himself over 10 years ago and my dad (his bro) found him during a search & rescue in weest virginia. He was a really really great guy... My favorite uncle. He left behind an 8 year old daughter at the time. (They told her he had a heart attack, and she just found out 10 years later what really happened and she is so very crushed.).
I lost my mom in 2001 to lung cancer and it is absolutely the worst thing imaginable to lose a loved one.
if you need to talk then let me know, as i am sure everyone here is also offering.
I am actually flying into Atlanta today to go down to Columbus. I will listen if you wanted to talk at some point.
571-251-1668Also, there are some great churches in Atlanta area... you should go and talk to some counselors there...
One of my all-time favorites is Charles Stanley's church...
First Baptist Church Atlanta
4400 North Peachtree Road
Atlanta, GA 30338
770-234-8300
www.fba.org
- erok0
Slinky,
Thanks man......
- HumanMale0
Losers way out.
Soooo selfish.
End. Of. Story.