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- killthefish0
I have no idea what you want me to do with this crowbar.
(This has nothing to do with the bartender)
(In Armenican we say "bartender")
(This has nothing to do with keeping a bar.)
(Am I to be the crowbarkeep?)
(This has nothing to do with in Armenical we can get crowbar tenders at the drive through window.)
(This has nothing to do with chicken.)
- voted!7point34
- nominated!killthefish
- seconder!Horp
- It's official!killthefish
- killthefish0
I am finding this very difficult to maintain without a support staff.
- killthefish0
I am finding it very difficult to install the support staff into my limited internet.
- Horp0
What's happened to your internet Kilty?
- It does not allow me to install pneumatic posts inside threads to keep them from needing to be bumped.killthefish
- he has an internet kilt? where'd he get an internet kilt? i want an internet kilt!7point34
- scot.comHorp
- I actually do have an internet kilt. Sacky demanded that I wear it to the wedding.killthefish
- Khurram0
Wanted to update the blog yesterday but phew! so busy....
Had the shits all day yesterday from a dodgy kebab :(
Pulled back into London late monday night and M said she'd pick me up and drive me home. This was lastminuite.com and I'm glad because it means i don't have to see her on the weekend and I got plans for that shit and that its valentines and we dont want that giving anbody any ideas. How sweet, cos it was raining and she does things like that which is bad cos i can get used to that level of care and consideration. conversation on the way down tho. She said, "I've been thinking about you... Remember when i first met you and you said that i shouldn't trust you, and even last week when u were in Munich u told me that i shouldn't trust you..." Woah, buzzkill. Here I am all loved up that she came in the driving rain to take me from the station to my home in the middle of the night which is an hour and more for her all like awwww. Still, well she recently got out of a relationship where she was "cheated" on and i make it a point to tell her what a "dick" i am. A futile effort to manage expectations so i offer weak exlpanations. "I would never set out to hurt you..." "Well obviously, no one sets out to hurt someone, just you act selfishly in a moment of weakness..." "Yeah, that's true. And i know i'm weak, in that respect, and if i could get away with it, i'd chose the callous option... But we've only known each other a few months, and trust is something you earn and I have to earn it still..." Ok, that was enough to shut her up. I do like her, she has bravado and an extroverted personality i love in a girl but yeah... but. She told me she made out with a girl last week - and i know she did it cos i was out and she knew what i'm like and what i get up to (how i met her) so she told me the story of a girl on her trampoline in her garden and ordinarily i would encourage her to explore her bi-side and i have been but not when i'm not there. But this is stupid and i rationalise it away, only she makes me sandwiches for work whenever i stay over, and that kinda shit gets me attached and possessive but i rationalise it away. We have sweaty pointless sex, and once again in the morning. She likes the vibrator i brought her back from Munich, and i left her in my bed when i went to work which was a gesture of "trust" on my part which she appreciated and she sent me a text at work telling me she came twice in my bed with her new toy. Hehe. She's nuts. She's 29, so a couple of years older than me, but at that age where a girl's sex drive goes through the roof and she's fully multiorgasmic and damn she can teach me a thing or too.... i can barely keep up.
Anyway, enough of that faggotry. Peak fitness was not achieved in the month of January. This was highly dissapointing, as this month was meant to be a period of solid training. Unfortunately a cold, a business trip, and the snow fucked things up - as well as going to leeds, which was a bad choice. So goals were not met like they were meant to, but we're already into February and now we're on February plan time.
Easing myself back into the pickup game. Last weekend was a start. Going out WITHOUT FAIL three times a week - Thursday, Friday, Saturday. This gets bumped up to 5 times a week come March (Mon, Tue, Thur, Fri, Sat). Meeting asterix and robo tomorrow, and Friday, and pilled up rave on Saturday.
Considering adding Selective Serotonin Reuptake Inhibitor's (SSRIs)to repertoir of drugs such as anti-depressants sertraline or paroxetine or a 5-HTP dietary supplement instead.
Glory times!
- The countdown to your cerebral embolism begins when?Nairn
- 'scuse me?Khurram
- Just an impression, shared.Nairn
- I don't follow.Khurram
- Slow down, is all I'm saying.
Unless, of course, I'm completely wrong - in which case, carry on regardless.Nairn - o i c, with the drugs? Don't worry, I'm not as flippant with this shit as i sound.Khurram
- Horp0
Khurram, due to current technical heartaches I am unable to read your post above but please be assured I will do so as soon as I am in a happier place, technology wise.
PS: Best not to mention elitisim in the blog thread old bean, they don't like it up 'em!
- MrOneHundred0
So, how's things in here?
- killthefish0
I'm trying to save money by not having any money.
- Khurram0
I'm getting a clearer idea of it now... that our beliefs are our emotional attachments to experience. This is why even the most surreal dream can appear "real" when experienced - and then when we wake our rational minds tell us how the dream transgressed all our beliefs and could not have been true... obviously. But in the throes of experience and emotions, anything is possible. It's a thin line between real and surreal.
- You watched that shitty Horizon program on dreams too?Nairn
- no. i didn't.Khurram
- Don't. It was shitty. But it mirrors the latter half of your first sentence perfectly.Nairn
- This was a rumination on a thread from last week on "Is everythign a lie". I wrote it in my notebook.Khurram
- btw, any new tips for Modafinil online? I'm going to order some bulk from 'airsealed' - any thoughts?Nairn
- also - 'phenibut' - you tried it? Seems like modafinil lite. More investigation required.Nairn
- We can discuss this via email.Khurram
- Khurram0
I have recently discovered the work of German poet, Rainier Maria Rilke. I find his poem, Childhood, particularly poignant, particularly the last line.
Childhood
It would be good to give much thought, before
you try to find words for something so lost,
for those long childhood afternoons you knew
that vanished so completely -and why?We're still reminded-: sometimes by a rain,
but we can no longer say what it means;
life was never again so filled with meeting,
with reunion and with passing onas back then, when nothing happened to us
except what happens to things and creatures:
we lived their world as something human,
and became filled to the brim with figures.And became as lonely as a sheperd
and as overburdened by vast distances,
and summoned and stirred as from far away,
and slowly, like a long new thread,
introduced into that picture-sequence
where now having to go on bewilders us.- R.M. Rilke
- The_Lone_Ranger0
I need to have my horse groomed today, that is all.
- killthefish0
I have the corpse of a horse out in my yard. Every day for the past 2 years I got out there and pound on it with a baseball bat. That is all.
- Horp0
KillTheFish, If you get this, can you email me Pile links pleases? I've left the bookmarks on my old machine and thats at the bottom of a river now.
Or the river of my bottom, I can't remember which.
- Riverbottom Nightmare Band?locustsloth
- Got it, sent it, it's probably in the teeth of the spam filter of the wrong email address right as I type.killthefish
- Horp0
Fear Not Khurram!
- Greedo0
What the fuck is this abortion?
- LOL
Don't start Greedo. Its been through enough grief as it is.Horp - bitch, on your knees to the OddBlog thread!!Khurram
- and we dont tolerate elitist wankers here. :-|Khurram
- or Jaline.Khurram
- Khuzz, you just shot our manifesto down in flames with that.Horp
- how???!!! have we become that which we despise the most??? iz dat wot ur sayin??Khurram
- No I mean its open doors here. Any and all.Horp
- `But anyway, open doors means doowhatchalike I guess so doowatchalike anyhow.Horp
- Yes, any and all except Jaline... I agree. This is why i prefer it here.Khurram
- and canuck and digdre.... i KNOWKhurram
- LOL
- magnificent_ruin0
shuttling between blogs
hope springs eternal- Spring taupes ahernal.
^ Makes no sense and I apologise for posting.Horp - Mourning becomes Electralocustsloth
- swallows bring capistranomagnificent_ruin
- Shitting between logs.killthefish
- Spring taupes ahernal.
- 7point340
198SFAS!!!
- locustsloth0
pickup note aaaaaannnnnnddd....
- Khurram0
200
- Congrats, you win a date with Jaline!!!locustsloth
- She's fucking adorable.Khurram
- highly salisaemagnificent_ruin