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- janne760
i can't sleep. so i am back. 5 am.
thanks for your support people above this post. it is heartwarming.
i am reconsidering what i should do. the pressure on my mind has become to big lately.. and i constantly end up in debt.
i perhaps do not understand the business side of my craft well enough or i am just not greedy enough.. i really lost track of the parameters in designersland.
maybe i go back to photography. just smalltime things. i don't have expensive gear so i can not compete on a higher level. just small things.. no press stuff though as the payments are terribly low these days here... newspapers fight for their existence as well here..
hmm.. i just don't know..
thunder in the sky now though, and rain pouring down..
- slappy0
You are a good designer, Im sure something will shake loose. Keep looking around for work, things will pick up.
- Gucci0
Dude. That sucks donkey dick. I lost my job 3 months back and my sense of self worth went with it so I can imagine how you must be feeling with shit seemingly crumbling around you. My prayers go out to you, but know that you'll bounce back and be better off for it when you do.
Only allow yourself one day to feel shitty. Once you're done with that, dust yourself off and realize you've got one life, and fucked if you're going to spend it in the gutter because of policy makers. There were plenty of dumber people than you who made it and continue to make it.
- skt0
janne, i''m none the wiser as to whats going on (i'm a bit drunk) but as much of a mental dutch bastard as you are, you will land on your feet. one way or another. plenty no talent cunts like myself can mnage.. you sir, will be just fine.
- BuddhaHat0
If your true real-world persona has even a tenth of the talent and intelligence I perceive you to have on here Janne, things will work out fine for you in future.
By the sounds of it you are very much a victim of your environment, which sounds to be a god-awful mess at the moment, I wish you all the very best mate.
- you guys overrate me a little too much, but thanks a lot!janne76
- janne760
well, at least the weather is hot, and fuck, for what it's worth.. tis a vacation.. someone helped me find a "camping" (is that same word in english) that provides wi-fi. :)
- GeorgesII0
shit Janne, if you're not pulling a uber, it is not funny!
You're situation is pretty fucked up but survivable, about 8 years ago I found myself in a very similar situation, all I have to say don't lose faith, visualize what you want to achieve and be ready to take any job people trow at you, just do anything, clean dishes, empty camions, get a girlfriend, seriously take whatever you can,
but don't get stuck in the loop because once you're in, your brain does some fucked up things,and if you believe in "a" God, pray!
- ismith0
Good luck! I'm going to have to agree with what Georges said, do pretty much anything you can to not lose your head because the first few days/weeks will really fuck with you...
Fire up any entrepreneurial skills you have and work yourself back on top. Or, sell most of your belongings and catch a plane to either LA or NY and we can be roommates!
- i will not fuck my head, i have had so much shit in life it only makes me stronger, wiser and more decisive..janne76
- janne760
today a lot more shit happened that you wouldn't believe, but at least i got my possesions away from my quite instable landlord.
- visionary0
where'd you poop?
- janne760
also i have spoken to some people here and there and they forbid me to do price concessions (engrish?) in the future. there's still some design agencies doing good because they are serious and honest and without pretentions, because the latter is seriously damaging for a lot of agencies (except ad agencies..)
- and i started to dislike ad agencies more than ever.. :(janne76
- invisiblechamber0
i recently had to move my studio to a much smaller place and this sort of downgrade really sucks. but what you have to deal with there is seriously harsh. keep up the hanging on!
- janne760
i am about to leave.. just packing up.. having a break on qbn now.. if i can i will post pics..
- Kiggen0
Janne, have you considered:
- Temping work in other fields (at some stage, work is work)
- the social housing dept. in Holland?
- if you are still selfemployed, call yourself 'technically bankrupt' and re-register as a hired worker so you do have some benefits.
- moth0
I don't get it. You're using the WiFi at your "Mums". I appreciate your difficulties, but claiming imminent homelessness sounds a bit far fetched.